My nights are uniformed in wishful thoughts about rolling over during any time of the eve and finding you there instead of a message. Loud thoughts are always quieted when I hear your voice echoing tenderness, or your eyes unwrapping the idea that maybe I bring light to them. Warm displays are the most cruel. It's just that tonight I don't feel like going to sleep without it.Without somehow unraveling those storytelling words I used to need on an impulse of total recall, or attempt to reinterpret.
We follow a cautious method when it comes to ensuring the fondness of each other's affections. It's like drinking a glass of wine. I've come to know hands that are all too familiar with the addicting shape of a bottle and the sound of its clinging against the last. But the method following a glass is fragile. I've enjoyed our evolving procedure that somehow manages to involuntarily settle beneath the exception we are to each other. A slow dance composed of opportunistic actions, powered by heavy longing and a little bravery.
This is how we drink our wine.
I'll down an excess if it means I can stay jovial from hearing you talk a little longer. I'm sure you'll hear me smiling across the phone.
I'm crushed by how much I like your unconstrained remarks, something about the way you use language to touch me in places your fingers cannot reach. Sometimes I can't help but feel like our story sits on the edges of illusion: during some other late summer, some other year that we met, where my concealed habits didn't wander atop sensitive and transitory grounds.
One thing that T said is relevant: "You're naturally a radiant person and there will be people that react accordingly." I just can't seem to forget. Strong words stay with me, and what a strange thing it is to be attached to this statement. I wasn't ever looking for it, but I welcomed you because I didn't want to know what it would be like without you.
I sought you in a dark confined space, past nightfall, persuaded by my own advancements that would have otherwise remained ephemeral. Now I replay my favorite December night with you, that one where your lips matched the color of my velvet dress. They looked like they had been bitten all over, rather than smeared by my crimson hue. You seemed to not mind much, and whether they had been bitten or smeared wouldn't have made a difference once we woke up with our limbs braided to one another. After Ruby's you threw your cigarette on the ground. You bandaged your arms around my quivering body while the cold city buried us deep.
So it's late again, the feeling is now too familiar, and it's terribly wonderful.
I'm not burdened by having a lot to say and not really knowing how. I think this effort in itself to try to accommodate my words is already a clear sign of what you do to me.
All I really want to tell you is that I've been missing you.
But you already knew that.
- A
We follow a cautious method when it comes to ensuring the fondness of each other's affections. It's like drinking a glass of wine. I've come to know hands that are all too familiar with the addicting shape of a bottle and the sound of its clinging against the last. But the method following a glass is fragile. I've enjoyed our evolving procedure that somehow manages to involuntarily settle beneath the exception we are to each other. A slow dance composed of opportunistic actions, powered by heavy longing and a little bravery.
This is how we drink our wine.
I'll down an excess if it means I can stay jovial from hearing you talk a little longer. I'm sure you'll hear me smiling across the phone.
I'm crushed by how much I like your unconstrained remarks, something about the way you use language to touch me in places your fingers cannot reach. Sometimes I can't help but feel like our story sits on the edges of illusion: during some other late summer, some other year that we met, where my concealed habits didn't wander atop sensitive and transitory grounds.
One thing that T said is relevant: "You're naturally a radiant person and there will be people that react accordingly." I just can't seem to forget. Strong words stay with me, and what a strange thing it is to be attached to this statement. I wasn't ever looking for it, but I welcomed you because I didn't want to know what it would be like without you.
I sought you in a dark confined space, past nightfall, persuaded by my own advancements that would have otherwise remained ephemeral. Now I replay my favorite December night with you, that one where your lips matched the color of my velvet dress. They looked like they had been bitten all over, rather than smeared by my crimson hue. You seemed to not mind much, and whether they had been bitten or smeared wouldn't have made a difference once we woke up with our limbs braided to one another. After Ruby's you threw your cigarette on the ground. You bandaged your arms around my quivering body while the cold city buried us deep.
So it's late again, the feeling is now too familiar, and it's terribly wonderful.
I'm not burdened by having a lot to say and not really knowing how. I think this effort in itself to try to accommodate my words is already a clear sign of what you do to me.
All I really want to tell you is that I've been missing you.
But you already knew that.
- A
